Ever since I started blogging and posting on social media, the number one question I’ve gotten has been, “why do you blog in English“. My standard answer for that always is, “well, because I like the language and also study it“. But honestly, it’s so much more than that. Sure… I do like the language, love it even. And I did choose to study english at university but there’s more to that than just these two tiny factors. When I started “Miss Getaway“, my main goal was never to be successful, earn a lot of money or get famous. All I wanted was to create an outlet for me to express my creativity and share my thoughts.
And that is very closely linked to why I blog in english….
I have always been an ardent reader and writer. Growing up I read multiple books a week and wrote down my thoughts in various planners, notebooks and diaries. In German of course. Then I grew up and was forced to start reading books in English due to me failing the subject at school when I was 14. I think that was the time I started to fall head over heels in love with the language. It didn’t start at once. As I got better and better at reading and writing in English over the time I began to realize that it provided me with a whole new opportunity to express myself. I literally opened the doors to another world for lonely little Kerstin.
I started to sign up in various forums and began to put up my thoughts and rambles. I discovered an outlet that was mine – mine alone. I’ve never been good at sharing my feelings with people I know. But online it all felt okay. There was always at least another person with the same fears, hopes and problems. I felt understood. I felt at home. I never bothered about grammar or spelling because as soon as I felt that what I wrote accurately expressed my state of mind it seemed to be okay to me. I never was afraid to be laughed at because of poor grammar – it’s not my mother tongue after all and I assumed people would understand and accept that.
At the same time I knew that the online me wasn’t the real me. Due to me writing in another language I felt alienated from my real self. It was almost like me publishing an anonymous book. It may sound stupid but I felt powerful and safe. No one of my real life friends or relatives would be able to find me online. Not only due to me using a made-up username but also due to me writing in English as opposed to my mother tongue German. Then, when I started blogging and using social media more frequently I also did that in English. I initially never wanted my friends and family to find out about this. (
hey y’all I know you’re stalking me)
What I write on here sometimes is deeply personal and leaves me vulnerable in front of the whole Internet. That’s f’ing scary!! But publishing my posts in English makes me feel safe again. It helps me to explore a whole new level of my personality. It helps me to express myself in words that I just can’t find in my mother tongue. It provides me with the opportunity to create stories and texts that beautifully express my feelings, fears and problems without me actually saying it. Would I write this post in German I’d try to be less personal. And also I just can’t form a proper German sentence – duh, that grammar is awful and let’s not even begin to talk about all these stupid commas and the weird upper and lower case stuff! UGH!!!
I recently realized that these column kind of posts are my favourites to write and publish up here so I really hope you like these posts too. Please let me know your thoughts in the comments down below, I’d love to discuss and read your view on the topic :)
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