why i moved house and what inspired me to do it

why i moved house and what inspired me to do it

The last few months have been tough and I am not going to pretend otherwise just for the sake of it. I had been stuck in a rut and kept quiet about it for so long. Because I felt like I was sounding like a privileged spoiled kid, complaining about things I should be grateful for having. This is my life, however. And I am in no means bound to shut up about the things that bother me – that weigh me down.

2017 has been a wild ride. So much changed for the better. One thing did bother me throughout the entire 365 days, though. At some point, though, I realized it was time to start peeling off the layers of dirt that were covering me. I stepped out into the light. And now, looking back, I realized that this was my rescue. Embracing “no suffering” as my new motto could not have come at a better time and turned my life around 180 degrees.

No suffering, or “why I moved house”

Living in a flat that I never wanted to be in in the first place certainly has left its toll on me. I did only realize how much this has been weighing me down, once I stepped out from underneath. Only when I woke up in my new flat, to the sun shining into my bedroom, calmly waking me from the first deep sleep in weeks, did I see what was missing for so long. Home.

I had never felt a sense of home in my old home. Sure, it was only a means of surviving. This old flat of mine was the first step I took into a new direction. I had already hinted at it. But at the beginning of last year I had ended a long-term relationship. I wanted to move out as quickly as possible and literally said yes to the first flat I visited. It gave me a way out. And I will forever be grateful for that.

However, I did hate it. And the loathing got worse day by day. Up until the moment when I did not want to go home after work, stayed late and met up with friends after almost every single day. When I was home I felt depressed. Uninspired. Uncreative. I felt like suffocating in the dark stuffy rooms.

One day, however, I stumbled upon “no suffering” as a life motto.

And I started to incorporate it into my life. It’s all about accepting that one always has their own life in their hands. It means either fully enduring the situation you are in and embracing it, or changing it. No suffering. No being in relationships that drown you and suffering through it. Either you make the best out of it or you leave. No staying in stupid flats that one does not like, but searching for another one. No powering through a job you hate but jetting off to the Maldives to start over with a cute surfer boy.

Sure, I’ll never know if I will find my luck, love, and happiness in the place I just moved into. Nor does materialism make one happy. However, spending a good third of your monthly wage on something that feels like it’s suffocating you, is no good either.

I’d rather have someplace I want to invite friends into. A place that allows me to take photos for the flat. Some walls that allow me to let my creativity flow. A flat that I want to wake up in on a slow Sunday morning and fall into after a heavy night out. I want to have a home. And I want to embrace it. Coat myself with it. Shout it out into the world.

Life really is too short to suffer through it.

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12 Comments

  1. 7th February 2018 / 11:30 pm

    Feeling at home in your home is so important, I’m glad you’ve made a change that makes you happy! I’ve moved around a lot since Universty (about 12 times!) and there have definitely been places that didn’t feel quite right. My home now is my sanctuary, and my boyfriend jokes that I keep it so clean he calls it “catalogue fresh” LOL! I’m proud of my home, and that motivates me to take the best care of it that I can, so I can enjoy my time at home whether I’m alone or with company :)

    -Lyndsay

    • 12th February 2018 / 9:22 pm

      Thank you so so much Lyndsay. I absolutely agree with you. I’m an extremely organized person as well and do like my flat catalogue fresh as well ;)

  2. Diana
    7th February 2018 / 11:36 pm

    So, so true! I think for me, home is the most important thing of all. Once I move into my own place, I’d like it to have a sense of home and be somewhere I feel safe and happy. Good for you for making the move, wishing you all the best! xx

    http://mylovelierdays.com

    • 12th February 2018 / 9:22 pm

      Absolutely agree. You only start to appreciate these things, though, once you don’t have them.

      xx

  3. 10th February 2018 / 10:10 am

    Oh das kann ich total gut verstehen. Ich fühle mich in unserem Haus auch so wohl und liebe es einfach nur zu Hause zu sein!
    http://carrieslifestyle.com

    • 12th February 2018 / 9:21 pm

      Das hört sich so toll an Carrie. Hab einen schönen Abend xx

  4. 11th February 2018 / 8:49 am

    Hallo Kerstin,
    schön, dass du jetzt eine Lösung und eine Wohnung gefunden hast, in der du dich wohl fühlst. Das ist wirklich ganz wertvoll, da verbringst du den Großteil deiner Zeit und mit dem Zuhause sind so viele Emotionen verbunden.
    Genau solche Geschichten mag ich auch an meinem Beruf als Immobilienmakler so: Menschen glücklich zu machen :)
    Wenn ich jemandem eine tolle Wohnung finde, in der er/sie die nächsten Jahre lebt und sich jeden Tag auf’s Nachhause kommen freut.
    Wenn ich jemandem helfe, seine Immobilie zu verkaufen/vermieten und so gutes Geld für andere Träume zu erzielen.
    Schon ein schönes Gefühl, dass so eine Freude durch meine Arbeit zustande kommt.
    Ciao Markus
    http://www.markusjerko.at

    • 12th February 2018 / 9:21 pm

      Oh ich wusste ja gar nicht das du Immobilienmakler bist. Ich stell mir den Job so so spannend vor.
      Und ja ich finde eine Wohnung kann so so viel ausmachen. Auch wenn man nicht ständig zuhause ist, muss man sich ja doch wohl fühlen. x

  5. 12th February 2018 / 4:36 pm

    For some reason, I hate the word suffering but I love the idea of that motto! It really means never doing anything you’re not comfortable with. Thank you for sharing!!

    xx Pia
    http://gymbagsandjetlags.com

    • 12th February 2018 / 9:20 pm

      aren’t there always words we absolutely despise. so interesting that yours is suffering.

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