It’s Monday night. We’re out with friends, sitting in one of our favorite pubs, drinking cold beer, laughing about our teenage selves and telling each other stories of travels, families and university. We’re good friends. I’ve known them for more than 6 years. We’ve been through boyfriends and girlfriends, family problems and school stress. They’ve been part of my “squad” for the past couple of years and I can talk to them about literally everything.
They know I’m a blogger but we’ve never really talked about it. I simply assumed they won’t be interested in it and nobody ever asked.
“You’re so much cooler on the Internet”, he looks at me and nods at the others for approval. They all agree – I’m different online. I’m startled. I don’t know what to say and simply stare at them. Until now I didn’t even think about them possibly reading my blog, being interested in the bits and bobs of my life that I share on here. They say they don’t want to hurt me, they just think my Internet-self is different from who I really am.
After the 3 beers that I’ve had I just don’t care & decide to be bold and just ask them why they think like that. They explain how they don’t get the whole blogging biz and how they think bloggers are fake and superficial. They never thought I’d become one of them. The quite one. The shy one. The one that never acted like a “star” and never really wanted to be on pictures.
Of course, they are right! But the thing is – that’s who I still am. My blog isn’t superficial (or at least I hope it’s not). It’s an outlet for me to express myself. To talk about things that matter. To share my stories… TO WRITE!
Yeah my online-self might be a bit different from what I am in real life. It likes to be on pictures. It’s confident and bold. Fierce and strong. But it’s still me – just a more confident version of myself. I’d never lie on here. I’d never act for fame/money/success. I am me and I always try to be as authentic and as “me” as I possibly can. But then again I just have to draw a line between my private life and the part of my life that I want to share up here.
I think they got it all wrong. They see these mega famous influencers online/on TV and think that’s who I’m aspiring to be. But it’s not. I’m not an influencer – I’M A BLOGGER! I’ll always prefer writing stories to speaking on Snapchat or filming YouTube videos. I’m not trying to get famous. I’m trying to spread my message. I’m a writer – I’m a sharer. I am me! And hell yeah, I might be cooler on the Internet but aren’t we all?
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