or, why I sometimes feel I’m not cut out for the blogging biz.
The blogging biz is a weird thing, isn’t it? You pour your heart out for hundreds, if not thousands, of people to read and yet you’re sitting alone in your bedroom, typing the thoughts down that hunt you in your dreams. Well, at least that’s how it’s for me. That’s how I love it, how I feel comfortable with it. I don’t care how many people click my blog or follow me on Social media because in the end, what this ultimately is, is an outlet for me to write down my feelings, to cope with my thoughts. Writing has always been my favorite kind of therapy. However, …
However, that’s not how it works nowadays. You have to attend events, meet brands and other bloggers, communicate, network, go out. Go out and show them your pretty face in real life. All eyes on you. Twirl for the audience. Be yourself and smile your prettiest smile. And that’s SO far out my comfort zone, you have no idea.
Don’t get me wrong. I do love attending events and have met some amazing like-minded people through this blog. And I do try. I try to be friendly, to talk them into following me, to smile and act as if I’m feeling comfortable in the situation even though I’m screaming inside. That’s why I sometimes really feel like I’m not cut out for the blogging biz. You’re supposed to love these networking events. Not feel best when you’re sitting at home, Netflix on, sippin’ on a glass of red wine and writing down your thoughts.
All eyes on you… all eyes on your success
A couple of days back I attended an event, and someone was like “oh wow you have almost 20k Instagram followers, that’s amazing”. “Look, she’s the one already making money from her blog“. And everyone was looking at me. All eyes on me. And I hated it. I tried to answer their questions without appearing like an ignorant/arrogant asshole but I just couldn’t force myself to be lovely. I was so out of my depth.
Later, I asked my friend whether it was visible how uncomfortable I felt and she said “umm.. yeah, one could clearly see that you don’t like talking about yourself while being stared at by all these other girls“. And yes, I don’t. Because I don’t think my the number of followers on my Instagram puts me above others, I don’t think my blog is better than yours and I certainly would never want to be the center of attention at ANY social event.
I love blogging and almost everything it entails, especially the amazing people I got to meet and the experiences I got to make. I will forever be grateful for Miss Getaway because this blog helped me so much to grow as a person, overcome my insecurities and work hard for something I believe in. But there will always be that part of me that doesn’t feel comfortable being surrounded by strangers. There will always be people who think I’m ignorant because I don’t mingle and am kinda socially awkward. But that’s me. I will probably never enjoy the spotlight. I will probably never want to be the center of attention.
And in normal life that’s fine. Not everyone does. There’s a place for everyone. But is there a space for the introvert in the blogging biz? A world dominated by superficiality. Influencers appearing virtually everywhere and bloggers attending one event after the other?
What do you think?
Advent in Graz, a bloggers-collab
Speaking of the blogging biz and the people you get to meet. These pictures were taken by Christina as part of a bloggers-collaboration with her, Lisa, Alina and I to show you some of the loveliest places at Christmas time in our hometown, Graz. For that, you’ll have to wait a few more days, though as I’m currently in the middle of prepping the Christmas content on Miss Getaway starting tomorrow!